Jude's guitar.
I could stay all my life like this, here... in bed, with you, staring at your face, watching the way your lips move... It seems like the perfect moment.-He said.
And a wave of thoughts passed through my mind, wondering, could he be more perfect?
Don't tell me those things, you're making me fall in love with you...-I said, and I don't really know how I got to that point... I mean, "you're making me fall in love with you"? What was that? Not a thing I would say.
Tange, do you love me?
OKAY, let's make a stop. "Do you love me?", that definitely wasn't on my plans... I mean, I liked Jude, but, LOVE? I didn't have IDEA of the meaning of LOVE, it was an unknown word for me. And for worst, the song we were listening to, was MY song, "Tangerine" by Led Zeppelin... That was all a fucking trap. A perversion, I... I, I mean, he was catching me, AGAIN. And, HE was the cause of the break with Tommy last week. (Of course, now you're getting it, aren't you? Do you remember? The guy I talked to in the party... Yes, the guy, was Jude. I had a romance with Jude, long time ago... He is three years older, so he likes adventures, so much.)Oh yes, Jude was the perfect drug for me... He had it all: he was handsome, with a lot of attitude, good at sex, and over all that, he was a rocker. I loved being with him, but when he started talking about LOVE, I began to be afraid.
If... You mean, if I love you?-I said, almost stammering.
Well, yes... You know, do you love me?-He said. And I didn't knew if he was talking seriously or if this was one of his mind games.
Well, yes... I guess. You're my friend, you're always there for me when I need you.
Tange, a "friend"? You don't fuck with your friends, do you?-Well, I actually did fuck with some of my friends...But well, this was getting to nowhere... What did he want to tell with all these rodeos?
Tange...
Yes?-This time I talked whispering.
What are we? We're not friends, we're more than that, and you know it.-Alright, this was already too much.
What do you want me to say Jude? I'm not gonna say the word "boyfriends". We're not boyfriends, you know it, don't you?.-Yes, I was hysterical by that moment.
Hey, calm down. I didn't say anything. No, we're not boyfriends... We're lovers, and I want this to never stop, Tange.-Yeah, that was totally the things I wanted to hear... Wasn't it?
Well, Jude... This isn't going to last forever, you know... We are rockers, we've got our lifes, with different people... We can't meet to have sex for the rest of our lifes.
OKAY, another stop. What the fuck was I saying? UH? You know, this is one of the things I hate from me. I don't know what the hell I want. I'm so stupid, Jude was GREAT! And I liked him as a fuck buddy... Why was I saying those things? I mean, I don't really need to be TOTALLY FREE AS A BIRD, yeah, I need my freedom, but... losing a fuck buddy is not freedom, losing a fuck buddy is foolish.
Wow... What do you mean, Tange?-I really used to love the way he called me "Tange".
I...I, you know...different choices, different ways in life.-All I gotta say about that is "UH?". What the fuck?!
Tange, are you telling me... this is OVER?-The way he said "over" would do something in my head... I mean, I had to react! My God!
No...er...No, I didn't say that, Jude... I like to be with you, I really do.-Here comes the big liar.-I guess you became a part of me... Like if you and I were one, you know, the same person... I've never met someone like you, Jude, you're perfect.
What the fuck are you saying Tangerine?!-That was a strange reaction, I wasn't expecting that.-Wha,what... That we are one? What's happening to you?!
Wait, wait, wait Jude. I was poetically speaking, not the way you think!-Oh shit, this was out of control, Jude was extremely strange, he was a mind totally hippie and free. With no problems, and no setbacks...Untill he found ME, the problematic girl, the misunderstood, the crazy without a piece of mind... In order, me, Tangerine.
Tange, you've said it... This is not for more, I'm gonna leave you baby.-Oh fucking shit! No, do you know what that means? "I'm gonna leave you baby", Led Zeppelin.- I should have quit you baby, long time ago.-Led Zeppelin once again.-Goodbye Tange.-He got up from bed, got dressed, and he left my department. Forever.
And I don't have recent news from him. My best friend, the great lover... Jude.
By Morena Tangerine Romero.-
And a wave of thoughts passed through my mind, wondering, could he be more perfect?
Don't tell me those things, you're making me fall in love with you...-I said, and I don't really know how I got to that point... I mean, "you're making me fall in love with you"? What was that? Not a thing I would say.
Tange, do you love me?
OKAY, let's make a stop. "Do you love me?", that definitely wasn't on my plans... I mean, I liked Jude, but, LOVE? I didn't have IDEA of the meaning of LOVE, it was an unknown word for me. And for worst, the song we were listening to, was MY song, "Tangerine" by Led Zeppelin... That was all a fucking trap. A perversion, I... I, I mean, he was catching me, AGAIN. And, HE was the cause of the break with Tommy last week. (Of course, now you're getting it, aren't you? Do you remember? The guy I talked to in the party... Yes, the guy, was Jude. I had a romance with Jude, long time ago... He is three years older, so he likes adventures, so much.)Oh yes, Jude was the perfect drug for me... He had it all: he was handsome, with a lot of attitude, good at sex, and over all that, he was a rocker. I loved being with him, but when he started talking about LOVE, I began to be afraid.
If... You mean, if I love you?-I said, almost stammering.
Well, yes... You know, do you love me?-He said. And I didn't knew if he was talking seriously or if this was one of his mind games.
Well, yes... I guess. You're my friend, you're always there for me when I need you.
Tange, a "friend"? You don't fuck with your friends, do you?-Well, I actually did fuck with some of my friends...But well, this was getting to nowhere... What did he want to tell with all these rodeos?
Tange...
Yes?-This time I talked whispering.
What are we? We're not friends, we're more than that, and you know it.-Alright, this was already too much.
What do you want me to say Jude? I'm not gonna say the word "boyfriends". We're not boyfriends, you know it, don't you?.-Yes, I was hysterical by that moment.
Hey, calm down. I didn't say anything. No, we're not boyfriends... We're lovers, and I want this to never stop, Tange.-Yeah, that was totally the things I wanted to hear... Wasn't it?
Well, Jude... This isn't going to last forever, you know... We are rockers, we've got our lifes, with different people... We can't meet to have sex for the rest of our lifes.
OKAY, another stop. What the fuck was I saying? UH? You know, this is one of the things I hate from me. I don't know what the hell I want. I'm so stupid, Jude was GREAT! And I liked him as a fuck buddy... Why was I saying those things? I mean, I don't really need to be TOTALLY FREE AS A BIRD, yeah, I need my freedom, but... losing a fuck buddy is not freedom, losing a fuck buddy is foolish.
Wow... What do you mean, Tange?-I really used to love the way he called me "Tange".
I...I, you know...different choices, different ways in life.-All I gotta say about that is "UH?". What the fuck?!
Tange, are you telling me... this is OVER?-The way he said "over" would do something in my head... I mean, I had to react! My God!
No...er...No, I didn't say that, Jude... I like to be with you, I really do.-Here comes the big liar.-I guess you became a part of me... Like if you and I were one, you know, the same person... I've never met someone like you, Jude, you're perfect.
What the fuck are you saying Tangerine?!-That was a strange reaction, I wasn't expecting that.-Wha,what... That we are one? What's happening to you?!
Wait, wait, wait Jude. I was poetically speaking, not the way you think!-Oh shit, this was out of control, Jude was extremely strange, he was a mind totally hippie and free. With no problems, and no setbacks...Untill he found ME, the problematic girl, the misunderstood, the crazy without a piece of mind... In order, me, Tangerine.
Tange, you've said it... This is not for more, I'm gonna leave you baby.-Oh fucking shit! No, do you know what that means? "I'm gonna leave you baby", Led Zeppelin.- I should have quit you baby, long time ago.-Led Zeppelin once again.-Goodbye Tange.-He got up from bed, got dressed, and he left my department. Forever.
And I don't have recent news from him. My best friend, the great lover... Jude.
By Morena Tangerine Romero.-
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